Over 1/2 Way

It's official, I don't sleep well anymore. It's such a bitter feeling after knowing an uninterrupted night's sleep almost every single night of my life. I toss and turn, go pee once to twice in the middle of the night and have now gotten out of bed more than once at ungodly hours because I just can't sleep. What a total bummer. I keep telling myself to get use to it and perhaps this is a good thing, easing me into interrupted sleep.

I always thought I'd be one of those women who love being pregnant, and it's not like I've had a rough pregnancy so far, but I'm finding more and more that if I could take this baby out and put her in an oven on the counter top, I'd do it! Maybe after 33 years of having my body to myself, I've become selfish...who knows. But because of this I force myself to notice all the wonderful things about being pregnant. The biggest one is something that really only came to me in yoga (it might seem obvious, but it needed to be pointed out to me). Right now I am a two ora person, I have 2 heartbeats. That alone is an incredibly magical thing. I'm growing a little human being with all the organs, fingers and toes (hopefully!), the human body is really amazing.

But there's more...feeling her kick and move around is a feeling like no other. Someone said to me recently that they were trying to remember what it felt like but they couldn't, so to enjoy it. So I am, I'm really enjoying it. On top of that I love the reassurance that she's in there and moving around instead of holding my breath at the doctor's appointment hoping to hear a strong healthy heartbeat. Her kicks and tosses and turns are becoming stronger and stronger, which I think led to my latest, very weird dream. I'll make it short....at my friend's wedding the baby totally changed positions, head to toe, in the process completely contorting my belly making quite a spectacle because I yelped at the feeling. Then she stretched out and with my skin still covering her, she was in my arms, I could see her facial features and her arms and fingers, but she was still in my belly with my skin shrunk wrapped around her. I thought to myself, "How the hell am I going to deal with this for the next 4 months?" So my brilliant idea was to stand up and rock her back to sleep, slowly she folded back into her fetal position and my belly became the nice, rounded belly it's suppose to look like. I woke up from this dream thinking, "I can't wait to meet this little girl, but it's a good thing I have a few more months, I'm not quite ready for it!"

When you're pregnant, people don't allow you to do things, like carry heavy items, or work too hard. At first I found this a little annoying, "I can do that!" or "I'm not handicapped!". But I've come to embrace it and enjoy it for the next few months, because expectation will go back to normal in no time. I use the excuse, "I'm pregnant, that's why I take a nap every day." And allow myself the luxury of not feeling lazy because of it. Growing another human being is no easy task! I working hard every moment of the day and night if you think of it that way :)

Those are just a few things I've made myself notice and enjoy. So far all is going smoothly, still exercising almost every day, no cravings, energy is good (especially after my nap :). My back bothers me if I'm up and about a lot of the day and my sleeping kind of sucks, but really I have little to complain about.

Here are some pictures of a little road trip I took by myself. I started North to Santa Cruz to see my cousin Jamie and her husband Rob who just had a baby girl Robyn. Then to San Francisco to see my friend Jillian who is still recovering from a surgery but doing much better. Then to my cousin Roge`s in Larkspur for my other cousin Gabby's baby shower. She's due in early October and I can't believe she's not due tomorrow, that belly is big! She wears it oh so well though!

Robyn is so darn cute and really such a good baby, good job Jamie and Rob :)

I love her!

I just got a whole bunch of cute girl clothes from a friend, and in all those cute onsies, this one was in there too. They'll be twinsies:)


Me and Jillian

Sistas...Roge` and Sonjia

Big belly and mini belly

Uncle Heath's honorary onsie: Winner, winner....

...chicken dinner! Complete with a signature skid mark on the bum :)

The cousins...Gabby, Roge`, Sonjia, me

21 weeks

Dad's request: bare belly :)


The new rug in the baby's room. The chair will change, we're looking for a glider (a type of rocker that sits on a stand instead of rocking across the floor), there are a few on craigs list. Still looking for a crib and changing table.

Baby Oliver's closet and baskets are being filled up. My friend Jill gave me a ton of clothes (my favorite are all the cute shoes!) Most of the clothes are 12-18 months, which is nice, she'll have plenty to grow into! On top of that, my mom has sent two overflowing packages of baby clothes, I love it!